Can't I live in PEI instead?

Another morning after another sleepless night. The problem is that I can't use earplugs, white noise, or anything like that because it's the vibration from trucks and trains that wakes me up and nothing can mask that. There's a train that comes at 3-something that wakes me up every single night, guaranteeing that even if everything else is quiet and I get to bed early, the night is cut dramatically short. I think I'm going to try sleeping in the basement tonight (rather than the third story of the worst built house I've ever lived in) and see if that helps. I don't know how much longer I can go without sleep without getting sick.

Those are some long quotes

Whew. Long day. I've been up since five AM so it's just about time to crash out. Happy birthday to my friends Jordan and Blair (sorry I couldn't make it to Dee's). Let's see… We posted a tattoo update (thanks to locoloquito for the cover shot — you can visit his portfolio also), and of course updated ModBlog also.

I picked up a new computer today for BME's “office” (that would be the room across from my bedroom) so Phil will finally have a dedicated computer for his work, and I won't have to fight for access when I need to do some programming or answer my email… And it'll let me convert my personal environment to a Linux one (well, I'll dual boot for Photoshop because I can't stand Gimp) without having to rewrite all the BME management software.

I know I haven't written many news entries lately; I barely have time to keep up with it let alone write about it I'm afraid. But I did have a couple things I wanted to share, first being this article that talks about why Iran is so wary of trusting the West. Paraphrased:

“All the interrogators in the secret police were trained in the United States and Israel. Five of my fingernails were peeled out in interrogation. I was a medical student,” said the man, Ali Muhammad Besharati, a former interior minister and deputy foreign minister. “But they put me in prison because I opposed American dominance in Iran.”

“I would like you to write this down,” he said, speaking through an interpreter. “If we backed down on the nuclear issue, the U.S. would have found fault with our medical doctors researching stem cells. What they would like to see us do is plant corn, make tomato paste and bottle mineral water. They do not want to see us get high-tech.”

“What was the result of all our confidence in the U.S.?” he asked forcefully. “Our agriculture was demolished. Our educational system was destroyed.”

Dr. Besharati recounted every modern American offense against Iran, from the shooting down of the Iranian airliner that killed more than 200 civilians, to officials of the Reagan administration calling for pulling the theocracy out by the roots. All this, he seemed to be saying, was why Iran would not give in to Americas demands on something as consequential as the nuclear program.

“Although our economic system may not be strong,” he said, “our minds and our memories are.”

Let's see what else… Did you know that so far about 40,000 US troops have gone AWOL in the past half decade? And that the US military isn't making much noise about it because they'd rather not have their stories told.

“When I joined, I wanted to fight,” he says. “I wanted to see combat. I wanted to be a hero. I wanted to save people. I wanted to protect my country.” But soon after he arrived in Iraq, he tells me, he realised that the Iraqis did not want him there, and he heard harsh tales that surprised and distressed him.

“Soldiers were describing to me how they had beaten prisoners to death,” he says. “There were three guys and one said, 'I kicked him from this side of the head while the other guy kicked him in the head and the other guy punched him, and he just died.' People I knew. They were boasting about it, about how they had beaten people to death.” He says it again: “Boasting about how they had beaten people to death. They are trained killers now. Their friends had died in Iraq. So they werent the people they were before they went there.”

Anderson says that even the small talk was difficult to tolerate. “I hate Iraqis,” he quotes his peers as saying. “I hate these damn Muslims.” At first he was puzzled by such talk. “After a while I started to understand. I started to feel the hatred myself. My friends were dying. What am I here for? We went to fight for our country; now were just fighting to stay alive.” In addition to taking shrapnel from a roadside bomb — the injury that earned him the Purple Heart — Anderson says he often found himself in firefights. But it was work at a checkpoint that made him seriously question his role. He was guarding the “backside” of a street checkpoint in Baghdad, he says. If a car passed a certain point without stopping, the guards were supposed to open fire.

“A car comes through and it stops in front of my position. Sparks are coming from the car from bad brakes. All the soldiers are yelling. It's in my vicinity, so it's my responsibility. I didn't fire. A superior goes, 'Why didnt you fire? You were supposed to fire.' I said, 'It was a family!' At this time it had stopped. You could see the children in the back seat. I said, 'I did the right thing.' He's like, 'No, you didn't. It's procedure to fire. If you don't do it next time, you're punished.'”

Kill 'em all and let God sort 'em out.

Playing soccer with chopped off heads is pretty fucked if that story is true. Anyway, I've got to go to bed, so here's some good news about rape and porn, some great fearmongering (with some truth to it), and some awesome guitar playing. Night all.

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NATA2

Sorry — I'm not going to be able to update today. I'm in the process of splitting the main BME development machine in two tonight and tomorrow. The box is currently cloning, and once that's done I'll start actually making all the pieces work. But I almost certainly won't be able to post until at least tomorrow.

Other than that it was a fairly productive day… I went into the gym and did my initial assessment, and training (M-W-F) starts on Friday. I'm really looking forward to it. Since I've cut out pretty much all drugs other than the couple things I'm on to help me sleep (which I won't need much longer I hope), I'm insanely hyperactive mentally right now and I'm looking forward to being able to channel some of that out.

I also ordered my custom plates today (I've mentioned this plan before) which I am hugely looking forward to. I hope they don't block them… I'm not sure if you're really supposed to get this license plate because of its rearview mirror effect, but I don't know the rules.

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Sore obliques

Because I'm sick of having to worry about rootkits and so on, I've been fiddling with getting Xubuntu running on my laptop. It's actually been no problem at all on the whole, and most of my old applications that I don't currently have Unix equivalents too seem to be running just fine under Wine. I just have to find my Photoshop CD so I can install CS (my Windows boxes are running CS2 which doesn't run under Wine yet)…

I couldn't sleep again last night because of the trains. I'm going to be here until the end of the schoolyear I think, but how wonderful it would be to be an old man with a guitar in the country… One day soon I hope. Well, the “old” part I'll have to wait for time to provide, but the rest I can bring about through my own actions.

You know, I can't say that one on level making the commitment to spend some extended time single isn't a little miserable simply because I like intimate human contact, but it's been really good for me in terms of stepping back, looking at past relationships and understanding what was good and what wasn't, and thinking about myself in clearer terms and understanding what I want in life. And I think that what I want in life is largely to be left alone and create art. Not that I'm not perfectly happy to blabber on endlessly, but I think I'd like art to speak for me instead of words on a computer screen one day.

Not that there's not art to words, even on a computer screen. Even when you speak in Assembly.

Anyway, time to run upstairs to check on a file transfer…
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Blah, blah, globalization, blah…

[Feel free to ignore my rambling repetetive entry, but the quotes are worth reading]

You know, I hope the oil crash comes soon. The sooner the better. A major energy crisis is probably one of the few things that can stop corporations, because it shifts the balance of power back in the direction of individuals and local, privately held businesses. Even now, megacorporations (who control not only “obvious” things like WALMART, but also now control the production of the majority of food resources, water resources, the military, the healthcare sector, and more), would collapse were it not for the billions upon billions of dollars in taxpayer subsidies they receive.

I think if the average person understood just how much of their income is being stolen and handed to big companies (who also pay politicians to run and pay for their campaigns in order to get the subsidies, and in most countries, essentially own or control the government to the point where they are above the law), it would make nearly anyone an empassioned tax resistor. In general I'm all for taxes that are for the public good — healthcare, roads, public energy grids, and so on as long as they're not just an excuse to hand money to friends of the government — but I am absolutely not cool with handing money to, for example, a farming corporation with millions of acres that they are slowly poisoning using nonsustainable methods (and as few employees as possible) just so they can dump surplus grain in Africa, calling it “aid”, when all it does is destroy African econonomies (how can a local farmer compete with free grain?), puts small farmers (often long held family farms) both here and abroad out of business, and makes the average person in the West poorer and poorer as they fill the pockets of major shareholders and executives with money they don't need.

The caste system just keeps getting more and more polarized, and the peasants are so easy to manipulate that so long — What did Hitler say? “What good fortune for those in power that the people do not think,” if I'm remembering it right. Lincoln (who ironically played a pivotal role in empowering the corporation) thought that the American people were strong enough to overcome everything but, he emphasized that they needed the truth… and what did Goebbels call the media? — “a great keyboard on which the government can play.” And now, with no line between the government and the corporation, the corporation plays the keys.

“We may congratulate ourselves that this cruel war is nearing its end. It has cost a vast amount of treasure and blood… It has indeed been a trying hour for the Republic; but I see in the near future a crisis approaching that unnerves me and causes me to tremble for the safety of my country. As a result of the war, corporations have been enthroned and an era of corruption in high places will follow, and the money power of the country will endeavor to prolong its reign by working upon the prejudices of the people until all wealth is aggregated in a few hands and the Republic is destroyed. I feel at this moment more anxiety for the safety of my country than ever before, even in the midst of war.”
-President Abraham Lincoln (1864)

And we can move a hundred years forward and see what Eisenhower had to say:

“We have been compelled to create a permanent armaments industry of vast proportions. Added to this, three and a half million men and women are directly engaged in the defense establishment. We annually spend on military security more than the net income of all United States corporations. This conjunction of an immense military establishment and a large arms industry is new in the American experience. The total influence — economic, political, even spiritual — is felt in every city, every State house, every office of the Federal government. We recognize the imperative need for this development. Yet we must not fail to comprehend its grave implications. Our toil, resources and livelihood are all involved; so is the very structure of our society.”

“In the councils of government, we must guard against the acquisition of unwarranted influence, whether sought or unsought, by the militaryindustrial complex. The potential for the disastrous rise of misplaced power exists and will persist. We must never let the weight of this combination endanger our liberties or democratic processes. We should take nothing for granted. Only an alert and knowledgeable citizenry can compel the proper meshing of the huge industrial and military machinery of defense with our peaceful methods and goals, so that security and liberty may prosper together.”

-President Dwight Eisenhower, 1960

So… we have an alert and knowledgeable citizenry, right?

Personally, I don't think so. And even with knowledge, I'm not convinced that we haven't gone so far down this path that even if we wanted to stop the corporations (whether it be the military corporations or be it all of the above) because they are so intertwined and in control of nearly every essential element of most people's lives. The only thing that can stop corporations in a way that doesn't also stop all of us is cutting off their food supply. And the closest we're going to get to that is escalating energy costs.

Oh yeah, and along those lines, if you want to make a good investment that will serve you well in the future, buy up cheap middle-America farmland. It's available remarkably inexpensively, it's good land, and the current populations are old and dying off, with the remainder slowly migrating to the big cities… and as long as oil is cheap, it's less expensive a lot of the time to grow the crops in Mexico and elsewhere, so we have a short window of opportunity to snatch up that land as individuals — because we will have a rough period where companies try to retreat to local land as the crash gets serious and that land again becomes unattainable for individuals.

Anyway, I've rambled long enough.

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