"Away from the office…

Rachel and I are in Amsterdam from the 3rd of November until the 10th of November for the APP convention and SAVED meetings. Access to email will be sporadic at best, although we'll probably be on IAM from time to time. Tech questions should be posted in the tech support forum, and TOS questions can be directed to Vanilla and CT who can also handle things like name change requests and so on. This entry will stay on top until we're back.

Experience update posted


The experience update (149 stories) is in place (with Zarathustra on the cover). Thanks as always to the authors and the review team, who by year's end will have a fancy new toy to make their job easier (and more fun). I notice at the last moment that four or five experiences got moderated but not put in the update — so if your experience is out of the queue but not on the site, it'll be in the next update most likely. Also, the final version of my Christianity article is in place as well thanks to some help from folks here.


Since I probably won't be posting much from Amsterdam (although I'll try to), I want to mention a few parting things re the news.

Things keep escalating in Iraq — guerrillas shot down a US helicopter, killing at least fifteen and injuring over twenty more. Local Iraqis commented, “The Americans are pigs. We will hold a celebration because this helicopter went down — a big celebration. The Americans are enemies of mankind” (more). Attacks on US and UK forces have doubled since July, and the two forces can't even agree on who the shadow enemy is, with Gordon Adams (former assoc. director of national security) saying, “our human intelligence is terrible… we were woefully underprepared in general” (more). A military report on the matter goes even farther, calling the intelligence officers poorly prepared and claiming that they possessed “very little to no analytical skills”, as well as pointing out that Iraqi interpretors were typically used for “fetching soft drinks” and other errands rather than helping solve these major problems.

Bush promises to say in for the “long haul”, claiming that leaving now would help “the terrorists” win (more). Of course, few Americans, let alone Republicans buy that story any more, but at the same time, no one is really sure what the alternative is. Rep. Trent Lot suggests (more),

"Honestly, it's a little tougher than I thought it was going to be ... If we have to, we just mow the whole place down, see what happens. You're dealing with insane suicide bombers who are killing our people, and we need to be very aggressive in taking them out."

Ah, the old “kill 'em all, let god sort 'em out” strategy, coupled with the belief that the folks defending their homeland by attacking an invading army are the agressors. I'm sure that'll go over real well with the Arab and Muslim world when US nukes level Iraq!

Teams that had been sent to Iraq on the pointless search for WMDs have been shifted over to security work (more) as it becomes more and more clear that there are not any WMDs to find. Will they join the dead? Will their family get another anonymous note letting them know their son is dead (more)?

"He told me: 'They don't want us here. They throw rocks at us. They shoot at us. I don't know what we're doing here,' " she said.

"Why is it O.K. if he dies?" his cousin Vecie Williams asked. "The president don't care. You see him on TV. He says this, he says that. But show me one tear, one tear."

Something that nags them is whether Sergeant Bell was wearing a bulletproof vest. In many of the pictures he sent home he is not. There is nothing between him and the enemy but a few layers of cotton.

"The Army people say he got shot," Ms. Ezell said. "But they don't say nothing more."

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"Did John bleed to death? Did he suffer?" asked Alma Hart, his mother.

Mr. Hart is more critical. "The Army hasn't given us any more information than a three-sentence press release," he said. "It's awful."

So what to do? America is engaged in guerrilla war after launching an illegitimate corporate war, leaving nothing but hatred in its wake — hatred that endangers American citizens, and all Westerners along with it. Instead of figuring out how to resolve the situation, the new plan is to start running propaganda campaigns attempting to influence Islamic schools in other nations (more). Maybe I'm nuts, but I'm pretty sure that messing with someone's religion like this really pisses them off.

Now, you can pull propaganda stunts like this in America because of the way sixty years of pervasive media have helped condition people to accept propaganda — here are some excerpts from a Republican guide to talking about environmental issues (more):

"Indeed it can be helpful to think of environmental and other issues in terms of 'story.' A compelling story, even if factually inaccurate, can be more emotionally compelling than a dry recitation of the truth... The facts are beside the point. It's all in how you frame your argument."

That is, lying works if you've got a compelling emotional story… So proceed with the lying!

Sound familiar?

At least the mainstream press is starting to pick up on the Diebold story (more), which is just the tip of iceberg of a massive conspiracy to fraudulently manipulate voting in the United States — recently released memos show shocking voter fraud to the tune of tens of thousands of votes being created by computer “error” to help get Bush in power (more). Who knows, maybe the mainstream US press will pick up the Israeli-911 story next (more).

Now to do some work on the IAM engines to keep the crashes to a minimum…

Tripod

First, I should pass on that Orbax was injured last night during a fire show and hospitalized. As far as I know he's going to be OK, but send your healing thoughts… And I hope that people who see these acts do understand that they are very dangerous, and even experienced performers can be seriously hurt or worse.

I got to watch 28 Days Later a couple nights ago. I thought it was alright, but nothing special… A lot of people have drawn similarities between it and Dawn of the Dead or The Omega Man, but I was thinking and what it's really a knock-off of is the early 80's BBC version of Day of the Triffids (which you can bet the director is familiar with).

Well, off to do an image update. If anyone talks to Orbax please let me know how he's doing…


Update, 3:25 PM
Orbax was moved to a bigger hospital with a proper burn unit… It's not clear yet what the extent of the damage is or how long he'll be out of commission. He's up and walking around though and the folks at the hospital say he's strong

He's done a lot for this community, and I know there are a lot of folks here who'll rally behind him in a second.

I live in a swamp, not the woods.

First, BMEshop just got its shipment of shoulder bags (ie. purses) in stock… Click the pix to jump to the order page (there are four different kinds right now):

I'm continuing to get feedback on the article — it's quite fascinating how it breaks down. I think without exception so far, the response from self-cutters has been incredibly warm and positive. I have gotten some positive responses from people who are not cutters, but on the whole they've been a lot more negative — as predicted in the article, a combination of “these people are sick and you are encouraging them” and “how dare you suggest that what I do is anything like those people!”

I'm not really surprised though and I don't think poorly of those commentors or anything… It must seem totally foreign to folks who don't have experience in either transformative body ritual or self-injury, so they have these somewhat ignorant knee-jerk reactions. The funny thing is that they don't clue in that it's the same thing that mainstream society does to them — older members will recall that body piercing was banned from tattoo conventions for quite a while.

I'll finish this comment up by quoting an email I got from my father on the article that I think is worth reading:

"You must of course continue to lobby and make safe alternatives available for persons who are going to do something on their own that could be done more safely by trained professionals. But you will not have won till the state returns the sovereignty of each man and woman over his body while his mind lives in it."

Other than that I just got email from a British TV channel that's doing a show on heavy mods. I'd agreed to let them use some pictures from BME/extreme on the condition that they put in a “thanks to www.bmezine.com for the photos” sort of note. Anyway, today they wrote me back to say that they “can't legally put a credit on the photos because thanking a company for photos is illegal under British broadcast law” or something… I told them they could either credit the pix or not use them. If they're going to profit from the site, they can at least promote it in return.

I think people think BME is bigger than it is… Last week I got this email, and for some reason I get messages like it all the time:

"I saw a tattoo in ITA in the December 2003 issue. It's on page 74 in the lower right-hand corner. Can you give me some more info on this tattoo? I would like to have the person who thought of it do it for me, if possible. If not then can you send me a bigger pic via email? God Bless."

I always wonder where they get the idea that BME runs all the tattoo magazines. It's as if I'm some kind of body modification illuminati figure or anything. As much as I'd be evilly thrilled if that was true, I'm just some dude that lives in a shack in the woods that happens to have a website.

It's almost time for my high-noon gunfight

I'm ordering the video editing box today (tomorrow)… nothing too exciting, but it will be built around Avid Xpress Pro so it'll be pretty slick. I'm probably going to couple it with a terabyte or two of drive space; I think a firewire enclosure might be the cheapest and most versatile way to do so — way cheaper than a NAS and more modular than SCSI I figure (although I may get a small NAS for BME work in the short-term future).

I've been getting weird pseudo-spam lately from people wanting to advertise on BME. Now, that's no shocker given that BME is one of the most popular sites on the entire Internet (shocking, isn't it?), but one of the odd side-effects is that any phrase on BME gets artificially bumped way up in the Google rankings — so it turns out that as I write this, BME is Google's fourth highest result for rate my rack!

In a less amusing piece of spam a lot of people have been complaining to me about being contacted by a “modeling agency” (who wants to charge people $75 or something to sign up) offering to fly them out to get a pile of “temporary” tattoos and piercings and do shoots with them — these folks are harvesting the personals as far as I can tell (which happened last time as well) — so if you have your email address listed there (rather than keeping it locked to BME/HARD only for example) you may have gotten the emails. I'm assuming the reasons for not working for this company are obvious, but who knows… maybe it's a good money maker. If they actually sign a contract stating that those tattoos will disappear in six months, you can probably sue them for a fortune — even if they fade dramatically, there should be some residual scarring and discoloration.

Other than that, I'm getting some really wonderful feedback on the articles that Monty, Cora, and I put together. One person did write me to say they were worried I'd just told cutters it was “cool”, but I hope it's alright if I share some of the other responses. Thank you to the people who had the strength to share them:

"When I entered BME the first time I was a little kid who did cut himself and was trying to find something or someone similar to him. Now I'm getting my degree in cultural anthropology and semiotics and im a tattooer — between then and now I've been in therapy (panic attacks), and one day my psychiatrist told exactly what you wrote in your column: your cutting thing was just your own therapy; now getting into the bodmod world and doing it professionally is your way to mark your growth. I knew it before but hearing it is somewhat different."

"Your article on SI was beautiful, to put it lightly. I am a self cutter of over 25 years, and no-one has ever so eloquently put into words the ideas I could never seem to get out of my head and onto paper. Thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts (and the thoughts of others as well) with such a large community. I hope it is one thing people do stop to read before heading in to other pieces of BME."

"Cutting helps me cope with my life. I have depression — I know that — it makes me feel happy and in control. I choose to cut, and while I am able to choose something that makes me happy I will continue. Thank you for allowing me to send in my cutting pictures for my gallery -- believe it or not but BME has helped me more than any anti-depressive pill I've ever been prescribed."

Someone else asked me whether I agreed that extreme body modifications were a sign of mental illness (believing that I'd implied that cutting was a sign of mental illness I guess — which I do not in fact believe). I'd like to include my reply here:

First, I think it's a mistake to believe that "extreme" modifications are more likely to be indicative of a problem than "normal" modifications — and self-injury is just a very "undiluted" form of transformative body ritual.

But I think what's very important to understand is that people who are injuring "as therapy" don't injure themselves because there's something sick in them — as I see it, they do these things in response to something sick in the world... they're using ritual injury to protect themselves from the sickness outside.

Anyway, I've got to prep an image update, an experience update, and another column in the next 48 hours or so, so I'll probably not be around too much as it's work work work till I leave for Amsterdam. Oh, and I'll be shutting off parts of the IAM server (nothing essential) while I'm gone which should mean less work for CT keeping things alive.

Finally — something I've forgotten to mention about the new experience engine… It allows pictures. Now when you're submitting an experience you can also upload a picture of the mod which will become integrated into the experience without having to find somewhere to host the image.