Sorry for the server confusion last night and this morning, and perhaps a little longer. Short version of the story is that some upstream nameservers got moved around and it messed with DNS for many of the machines in the cage. They appear to be slowly becoming accessible again, variant largely on the way your local network is caching DNS requests as far as I can tell.
Things are nicer underwater. I like the way things look underwater. I like the way it feels to be totally surrounded by water and not having to use my body to support weight. I like the way objects move, both intentionally and with the current, underwater. I like the way things sound underwater. I like the feeling of extreme loneliness coupled with extreme connectivity with the universe that's easiest to experience underwater.
I was watching freediving videos and I wondered how long I could hold my breath. When I was a teenager I could hold my breath for four or five minutes without any real effort (I used to do it to pass the time on the late bus home from school)… Anyway, as of this morning that has dropped to a pretty pathetic 2:15 (albeit that's no preparation, just “let's start… now!”), although I'm pretty sure I could push that to about 3:30 with a bit of effort and practice.
The last two nights I've been woken up by a person lying next to me writhing in pain. I wake up and I roll over to try and adjust my leg and I have a temporary megafright as I stare into this distorted face, like some Picture of Dorian Gray for pain rather than sin. As my brain realizes it's awake the figure disappears fairly quickly, but it makes me wonder what I dream about. I mean, is it weird if I'm dreaming about some imaginary doppelgaenger that I dump illusory pain into until the real pain overwhelms my ability to do that? It's like being mean to your imagination or something.
Anyway… I can't really focus (seriously, I am amazed that this entry is readable at all — I think that having BME servers offline has pumped me full of adrenaline or something so I'm not as out of it as normal) so I'm going to keep my fingers crossed that things stay online long enough here (I've tested three or four locations, and of course of the set, my home connection is performing the worst) for me to get ModBlog updated…
You know, over the past week I think I've probably written dozens of entries, but I read them back to myself and they barely make sense. I know it's not a responsibility to write here or anything but I thought that since I won't remember it I ought to write down that I have been in really surprising and disorienting amounts of physical pain for the past few days, and it's a little overwhelming. I think I've been unintentionally rude to my friends in that time period, and I apologize if that includes you.
I like the stamp on this card a lot.
[to help a future medical search: this is about my knee tumor]
Do you belive a person feels and finds love only once in there in there lifetime…Or excitence on this earth?
FROM: glider@bmezine.com TO: DaveT
Why are you emailing me about this?
FROM: DaveT TO: glider@bmezine.com
I don't fuckyou I'm going to smoke it fuck with my computer or anything in relation to myself you will have problems… thankyou………the second show will being showing at 5:00 am….every show is diffrent… have a goodnight ladies and gentalmen I do
I AM JUST SENDING THIS OUT TO WHOM EVER WANT'S TO READ IT.I JUST GOT DONE LOOKING AT SOME OF YOUR STUFF ON THE SITE.YOU KNOW ,,,THIS STUFF IS SICK,ALL THE PEOPLE IN THESE PHOTO'S SHOULD SEEK HELP,THEY ARE NOT RIGHT. THEY LOOK STUPID,UGLY,NOT ATTRACKTIVE BY NO NEENS.REALLY ANY ONE WHO THINKS THAT WALKING AROUND IN PUBLIC WITH SPIKES AND ALL KINDS OF SHIT HANGING ON THERE FACE AND OTHER AREAS ARE WELL JUST DUMB.THEY NEED HELP,THEY SHOULD BE LOCKED UP SOME WHERE AND THE ONES WHO DO THAT SORT OF WORK SHOULD ALSO BE PUT AWAY. THANKS.
FROM: “satoshi” IP: [resolves to Redford, Michigan]
Normally japanese do not have tatoo. Because Tatoo is symbol of Yakuza. (japanese gang). Hot spring will not accept tatoo. However, tatoo should not be treated like that. Japanese should have more freedam. I want to be a Japanese, but I want live my life with my way.
Forensic science is a tool of the devil. If people can write me and demand that the self-cutting section of BME be removed because it's triggering, I demand that the police not run 666 plates because it gives schizophrenic murderers a reasonable “out” for cop killing. Or in my case, pedestrian killing (don't click that), because it makes me take photos in inclement whether while driving.
