Shannon Larratt is Zentastic

I have more of the mystery postcard puzzle to post but there's a lot of cards in that set so I have to get a chance to scan them. But I wanted to thank the person who sent this card, it really made me feel a lot better. I don't know that I'm quite as nice as they think, but it makes me smile to think that someone cares enough to flatter me even if it's not.

I've been trying not to complain so much because really, what's the point? For who-knows-how-long I've [physically] felt pretty much exclusively either nothing or pain. It sucks. I barely sleep and most days I spend a couple hours wishing I could figure out a way to make it all end without fucking over tons of people I care about. But blah blah blah. Whine whine whine. The point is I just wanted to really thank all the people who send me little notes, support BME, help with projects, hang out and help out in person, and so on. I can't begin to express how grateful I am to everyone and, trust me, any positive effect I've had on others lives is minor in comparison to how much others have helped me.

Even if I'm shamefully poor about replies, I really want people to know what a difference it makes. It means a lot to me.

Anyway… two months and two weeks (or so) left to go before the surgery. That's not very long. I can hold my breath till then… But for now, for today, I've got to start drawing a pile of suspension diagrams. Then I'll make myself miserable watching a TV show about an eccentric ass with a drug problem and a bum knee. Even my choice of entertainment is narcissistic haha.

Meh, I think I'll go paint instead.