Shannon Larratt is Zentastic

As you know, I have a harem of women that catches fish for me. Or something like that. Anyway, whatever the source, we have a freezer full of freshly caught young marlin from which I've been trying a slightly different recipe every day.

First of all, since you're probably wondering why, being at least in general vegan, I'd be willing to eat marlin at all: On an ethical level, I don't have a big problem eating fish because they have really primitive brain structures. On an environmental level, catching a fish on a line and eating it is far less destructive and costly here than importing vegetables, and does positive things economically… And I also believe that when you hunt your own food, you have an increased empathy for and relationship with animals and the environment.

So…

This was the first meal I made and is just marlin steaks cooked in sesame oil and garlic, along with week-old couscous (it was crunchy) and cactus… I think I may have made a chile pepper powder and fresh lime for it too but I can't remember.

Marlin steaks again, this time cooked in a sweet and spicy sauce of ground sesame seeds, brown sugar, cascabel and other chiles, sesame oil, and apple cider vinegar. They're cooked with cactus, fresh green chiles, and chick peas.

This is a pair of blackened marlin fillets. Cooked in a super hot dry pan, they're dipped in olive oil and then in a spice powder of ground cascabel, peppercorn, garlic, and salt, mixed with whole sesame seeds. The side vegetables (red onion and zucchini) are lightly cooked with garlic.

I could literally cook a meal like this every half hour, all day long. I really love cooking and eating… One of the shows that Rachel and I watch is Starved, a sitcom about four friends with eating disorders (and one's an alcoholic). It's a really brilliant show about the nature of addiction that you should consider checking out if you don't know it. Anyway, in the last episode one of the characters becomes vegan to curb his weight “problem”.

I don't think I've mentioned this publicly before, but for most of my life I've been a compulsive overeater bulimic (yeah, laugh it up) — hence my weight fluctuating between 170 and 260… Switching to being vegan was the single most effective way to stabilize and normalize my weight (because, within reason, you can still overeat), and once you get into cooking for yourself (it's harder to eat junk food and pre-prepared dishes as a vegan) it's actually quite enjoyable and it goes farther to correct eating disorders than anything else I've experienced.

Anyway, BMEvideo got updated this morning and another BME update will go up later tonight.