I've processed the first half of memberships for the update, but don't be too confused if you get a password email but your picture isn't on the site — they're not being added till around midnight I'm guessing. Right now I'm just pounding back the water to get good and hydrated and it's off to the gym… to see what kind of damage a week and a half of sloth did to me.
I find myself at another junction point in my life. I have some big decisions to make that I'm not qualified to make. Keep your fingers crossed that I do the right thing… but on a more easy note, I'm getting more excited about my new book all the time. I think it's going to be really groundbreaking and special.
My definition of a musician: a man who hears through all his senses. Anna Magadalena, Bach's second wife, records in her diary the striking impression made by her husband's eyes: they were listening eyes.She also recalls: "Once I went into his room while he was composing 'Ah, Golgotha!' from St. Matthew's Passion. I was amazed to see his face, usually calm and fresh pink, turned gray and covered with tears. He didn't even notice me, so I crept back outside, sat down on the step by his door and started to cry." Bach's music is the medium of heavenly transfiguration. In it there are no feelings, only God and the world, linked by a ladder of tears.
- E. M. Cioran
Tears and Saints
Other than building musical machines, I'm not much of a musician unfortunately, but I think that all art — be it music, painting, programming, poetry, whatever — is an expression of divinity and even programming can be a deeply emotional act if that's how you come at it. I find as I work out more, and it raises my hormone levels, I'm more and more emotional. It's strange… When my hormone levels are low, I feel in touch with the divine on a conscious level, but when they're high, I feel in touch on a subconscious or intuitive level.
It really leads one to an understanding of castration in the spiritual context; as a path to enlightenment. This is one of the subjects that the new book explores in depth — it is about heavy mods and BME/HARD material, but to my surprise the real subject is using carnal approaches to talk to God…
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